Emily and the Zombie Apocalypse
Emily and the Zombie Apocalypse. Now there is a title I never imagined I would write, but bear with me….
A few nights ago, well, more specifically, in the early hours of the morning I had a dream. Rich, Freyja and myself were trying to survive in the middle of a zombie apocalypse. There were no zombies. There was no mention of it being a zombie apocalypse. We were just moving from place to place, looking for safe places to stay. Working out who we could trust and lying low. I can only assume that this came from having been watching The Walking Dead.
I don’t remember much about the dream and when I woke I didn’t have that post-nightmare feeling of panic. But moments after something hit me. Where was Emily? In the dream it was just Rich, Freyja and myself. All at our current ages. What had happened to Emily? Had she been the victim of a zombie attack? If she had, none of us appeared to be particularly sad. I know we were desperately trying to survive, but regardless there would be grief. Was she being looked after by someone? Why would I have entrusted her to anyone else? Surely I would have that constant worried feeling about her well-being from potential zombie attack?
Now, with most dreams, even if I remember them, I don’t spend long pondering them. But with days after, I feel bothered. I am not sure if it is directly because of the dream anymore. More that I am almost questioning my parenting skills in a DREAM about a ZOMBIE APOCALYPSE. Why? I question what I am doing so often, why am I putting this added pressure on myself? Why am I worried about this imaginary situation? This RIDICULOUS imaginary situation.
Emily, if you read this in the future. I want you to know a couple of things. Firstly, if there ever was a zombie apocalypse. I would NEVER leave you behind. If we were parted, my only priority would be to find you. Secondly, whilst I was having this dream you were snuggled up next to me in my bed. Maybe that is why I wasn’t worried about you in my dream, or why I didn’t wake up feeling panicked. You were next to me and I knew you were safe.